I've posted a few other prayer requests concerning this subject before but things are a little differant now. You see, I haven't been keeping in contact with my best friend Michael for awhile now - things are just differant and I find it hard to talk to him at times, but that shouldn't make a differance I know. Late last November and early December we were trying to make basic plans to see if he could come up here and visist me during his "Spring Break". My Easter Vacaction is only 3 days I believe and with these "storms" hitting us here in Maryland we only have one more snow day left. Of course the so far plans was that I would find out if he could "shadow" me while at school. Not exactly shadow because there can't be any plans for him to attend (kind of hard with him living in NC). Talked a bit to Er- not sure what you would call him but he said he wasn't sure how that would go because Michael isn't a Christian, and I do attend a Christian school. With there being only a few months til Easter I really don't want to seem to eager and well "greedy" for him to come here. Yes, I'd do pretty much anything to meet him. I want to meet him because he just incredable, ugh- I don't know how to explain it. I can just really be myself around him, even if its only been online.I'm not afraid to say my best friend is someone I've never meet face to face. But also, I've never been good with talking online. Somethings just can't be said online. I really want to tell him more about the Lord, I want him to know who He is. And I'd love for him to meet my Pastor who is also my grandda in a sense that he was the only father figure my mum ever had and thus like a grandda to me (I lost my only grandda back in '94). But to get back to the point, I really don't know what to do. I mean, my parents had already said that they would love if Michael could come up here and him being here would be no problem at all. Its just his parents and the fact I have been very negilent on all of this. I also think my eagerness to "teach" him more about the Lord has gotten him to think I'm doing this more for me then him. And I can't begin to explain how much that hurts.
Sorry for making this long and such. And thank you for reading through all this. So if you will, please pray that I can take the time to listen to the guidance I know others have been trying to give me, that I'll still know enough that my plans won't always be God's plans, and please that my dear friend Michael see the goodness of the Lord.