Hi guys,
I need some advice and alot of prayer. I know everyone sins, except Jesus, but of late, I've been finding myself really sinning willfully, even though I hear this "voice" (is it my conscience or the Holy Spirit?) in my head ( or is it in my heart? I'm not sure) that tells me it is wrong. Please pray for me and give me some advice on them. I have 2 major sins I notice myself participating in, and they are enjoyable, and I really have a tough time fighting against the temptations:
1) I'm not really going to talk alot about this one, but suffice to say, it is of a carnal, sexual nature, does not involve any others besides myself, does not involve sexual orientation or sexuality, and it is pleasurable, but I know it is wrong, especially since my parents themselves told me it was wrong. Now knowing its is wrong on my own is bad enough, having my parents say it to me, and my still not listening itsn't really honoring my parents is it? So it's like a double sin.
2) This one I will talk about to a greater extent: Skiving. My mom is the kind that doesn't interfere with your studies much except schedule. She forces me to make a timetable for my homework and studies, and then holds me ridgidly to it, and gets all panicked if I'm not 100% keeping up with it. God knows I need it, but I can't concentrate for very long, so after promising my mom that I will spend my full concentration on my work until it is done, I go and get distracted and skive by reading an online comic, drawing, or something else. This is not only not honoring my mom, but also cheating and breaking my word. I really need help with this, because I just can't seem to concentrate on my work. I think I'm the kind of worker, who works, stops, plays a video game, moves on, and doens't really care about schedules and timetables as long as I get enough sleep, do everything I have to, and get in the work by the due date. I really need your advice on this one, but I need your prayers for both.
So please pray for me and give me some advice. Fighitng temptation is hard, and I understand you probably can't give me much advice for the first one since I'm not really telling you it's actual content (That would be definitely inappropriate). Thanks to all who pray for me and give me advice!
P.S. To all the higher ups that see this post, I hope this post isn't against any rules or inappropriate. If it is, I'm sorry, please just delete the thread, but keep me in your prayers. Please don't ban me, because I really love it here where people can share their problems and hobbies, and Faith.