Guys please pray for me that God I can get back to his will and help my life. I know God called me to be a missionary but I am being discourage for doing God will. To me, it seems impossible right now. I have been feeling like this for quite a while and I hide my true emotions pretty well. Last semester and this summer I felt like I was drifting from my heavenly father. A lot of things happen in my life. Last semester I didn't really hang out with Godly friends who give me courage and wisdom; I didn't keep up with my bible reading. Got into stuff I never would do, like drinking. I also went to a fraternity party and got drunk (first time in my life). My grades last semester was pathethic, I pass two classes and failed two. This one of the reason what is hindering me (old prayer request). One top of that *If you read my old prayer request* my mother health is deteriorating because of diabetes, annemic, and other illness she haves. My father brought a mistress to live in my family apartment, since he couldn't afford it. I love my father but I also hate him. I hate him, hate him, hate him for what he is doing to our family, but I still love him because he is my father. I have been through a lot and I am point of breaking down right now.
Thank you for your time and your prayers.