Good day.
Normally I would not post such a request here. But I am left with little choice. It does seem to me that the more people who pray for me, the worse I feel, but that is beside the point. The point is I am at my wit's end and have no clue what to do anymore, so I am posting here.
A lot of this is quite personal, so I cannot go into very much detail. Anyway, approximately one month ago, my girlfriend broke up with me. And I haven't been happy since. This is a change from when we were going out, when I can't think of a single day that I was depressed.
I went from a man who constantly sang God's praises and worshipped Him greatly...to this. A man who believes in God only because it is the truth, and nothing more. I have had no desire to worship Him since that day. I only believe because I know it's right.
At any rate, crying myself to sleep is the rule rather than the exception now, and I am just...I don't know what to do anymore.
If you want, I can pray...I feel guilty about posting a request of this nature here, when most other people have problems that are much more serious than this, such as dying relatives or a lack of faith. My request seems small and insignificant compared to ones such as those. But do what you want, I guess...
Oh, one more thing. I am 24 and have been around for a while. As such, I am quite learned on matters of the heart, and I know I love her. So please do not trivialize my feelings by calling it a "crush" or something of the like. Thank you.
Nate
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Prayer request, I guess
Ezekiel 23:20
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Nate - Posts: 10725
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This one will pray.
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AngelSakura - Posts: 1430
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man... I know exactly what you're going through. I know exactly what it's like to know beyond the shadow of a doubt that you truly love someone... to feel it with everything you have in you... only to have it end in an instant. I know because I'm going through it myself... though it's a somewhat milder degree now. It feels a lot like everything good and lovely inside you has died... doubt casts its shadow over everything that you know and everything you thought you knew... suddenly isn't so clear.
After my girlfriend broke up with me... I hated myself so much that I wanted everything to end... everything to just burn away into nothing. I thought my dream of marriage was dead. Honestly, I'm still going through that a bit, but by God's grace those thoughts are diminishing. As I draw closer to Him, my darkness fades.
Even though I feel just as strongly for her now as I did before... I have to accept the fact that it's over, as difficult as that is to do. As painful as it is to realize... I have to come to grips with the fact that we're finished. Well... that and I won't be able to listen to "Kiss Me" by Sixpence None The Richer for a very, very long time. Yet, as much as the pain I go through may increase or decrease, God will see me through it simply because He has promised to do so. Therefore, as He has been there for me... and as He is carrying me through my situation... I will pray that He does the same for you. I pray that God carries you through your pain... that He comforts your broken heart... and that He bring you a greater joy and love than you've ever felt before in your life. As long as I'm able to remember, I will perform this deed.
Oh... and by the way, it may seem pretty out there and warped... but your pain will fade and your healing will begin when you start to worship God again. Oddly enough, that's how it works. Hey, don't ask me why... the whole thing bakes my brain more than anyone else. I just don't get it. All I understand is that it works... and it works very well.
After my girlfriend broke up with me... I hated myself so much that I wanted everything to end... everything to just burn away into nothing. I thought my dream of marriage was dead. Honestly, I'm still going through that a bit, but by God's grace those thoughts are diminishing. As I draw closer to Him, my darkness fades.
Even though I feel just as strongly for her now as I did before... I have to accept the fact that it's over, as difficult as that is to do. As painful as it is to realize... I have to come to grips with the fact that we're finished. Well... that and I won't be able to listen to "Kiss Me" by Sixpence None The Richer for a very, very long time. Yet, as much as the pain I go through may increase or decrease, God will see me through it simply because He has promised to do so. Therefore, as He has been there for me... and as He is carrying me through my situation... I will pray that He does the same for you. I pray that God carries you through your pain... that He comforts your broken heart... and that He bring you a greater joy and love than you've ever felt before in your life. As long as I'm able to remember, I will perform this deed.
Oh... and by the way, it may seem pretty out there and warped... but your pain will fade and your healing will begin when you start to worship God again. Oddly enough, that's how it works. Hey, don't ask me why... the whole thing bakes my brain more than anyone else. I just don't get it. All I understand is that it works... and it works very well.
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Nightshade X - Posts: 681
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Yeah, don't be ashamed, kae. I know what you're going through. After my first (and hopefully only) breakup, the pain hurt so bad I wanted to disappear. It's normal for a while to distance yourself from just about everything, but you are doing the right thing now to be asking for help and prayers. You can pull through it. I know you can.
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K. Ayato - Posts: 3881
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I prayed, how about remembering the day you got saved? (or just start reading MORE of the Bible, it'll pump your spirit up. BIG HOLY GHOST! Not teensy tiny skelaton Holy Ghost...)
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Ryupower - Posts: 1056
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I'll pray for you Kae.
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christianfriend - Posts: 1251
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kae...
that's like something i wanted to say...i still don't feel like i'm on rock hard ground...but...i feel as if i'm getting there...you know how i feel about all this...if...there's any POSSIBLE way i can help...i'll try my best to do so...luv ya man...you're a great friend...don't beat yourself up to much...think of job...which i should probably be doing...he got everything taken away...you still have somethings...and you have great friends that love you...but...we all have our dreams...-__- ...although my dreams scare me sometimes...o.o;;;...we'll all get through this...I only believe because I know it's right.
[color="DarkOrange"]"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things... hey... the good things don't always soften the bad things; but vice-versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." -11th Doctor
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
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c.t.,girl - Posts: 1428
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Remember that I am praying for you daily my dear brother! 
I think this is VERY good advice. Maybe just try putting on a worship CD to begin with, and listening to the words. I understand that we don't always feel like praising and worshipping Him, but its during the tough times that this worship becomes even more beautiful and meaningful.
Nightshade X wrote:Oh... and by the way, it may seem pretty out there and warped... but your pain will fade and your healing will begin when you start to worship God again. Oddly enough, that's how it works. Hey, don't ask me why... the whole thing bakes my brain more than anyone else. I just don't get it. All I understand is that it works... and it works very well.
I think this is VERY good advice. Maybe just try putting on a worship CD to begin with, and listening to the words. I understand that we don't always feel like praising and worshipping Him, but its during the tough times that this worship becomes even more beautiful and meaningful.
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well...during my times...when i would put on praise music...i would start to feel angry...mostly at Him...then...after about a few days...i would do it again...and then i would start crying...and then emotionally i would run to His arms crying like a child...i'd say...do it...listen to jeremy camp...go buy the CD Stay...and listen to the songs:
understand
walk by faith
stay
take my life
also...there was something you had said on a thread on sam*ron's cite that stuck with me during my hard times...James 1:2...although i don't remember how far you went with that verse but...even during my hard times now...yes...now...i still remember that verse...
may God bless you, nate...
understand
walk by faith
stay
take my life
also...there was something you had said on a thread on sam*ron's cite that stuck with me during my hard times...James 1:2...although i don't remember how far you went with that verse but...even during my hard times now...yes...now...i still remember that verse...
James 1:2 wrote:2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
may God bless you, nate...
[color="DarkOrange"]"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things... hey... the good things don't always soften the bad things; but vice-versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." -11th Doctor
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
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c.t.,girl - Posts: 1428
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why do you think this is insigificant? i know how much pain you're going through man, and... come on... there's really no such thing as "oh one's problems aren't as big as anothers"
every problem is a problem, big or small, and it needs help and prayer
and ill be praying for you man! and i feel and know what you're going through, when you feel that the girl who is the world to you slips through your fingers... and is gone... it really does hurt... and it's hard to get over it
if ya stay negative like this, and all sad and stuff... and clinging to that last thread of hope that you think is there... its gonna get a lot worse.... the best advice... is to accept it, and move on... and it'll hurt, But Christ is there to help you man
every problem is a problem, big or small, and it needs help and prayer
and ill be praying for you man! and i feel and know what you're going through, when you feel that the girl who is the world to you slips through your fingers... and is gone... it really does hurt... and it's hard to get over it
if ya stay negative like this, and all sad and stuff... and clinging to that last thread of hope that you think is there... its gonna get a lot worse.... the best advice... is to accept it, and move on... and it'll hurt, But Christ is there to help you man
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