Please don't lose heart c.t.! I'll surely be praying for you!
Sometimes when I'm in low spirits/having a hard time, It will help to search my favorite websites for articles relating to my current circumstances.
I'll try to find some websites that I used to know and post them here, hopefully some of them might be useful to you.
Probe A helpfull website where you can find articles on just about anything, there's also a search feature on the main page.
e-team revolution An excelent devotion archive. Some are duds, but many are great.
Brio What looks like a girl's version of breakaway (A really cool christian guy magazine.)
LOTE live Doubtfuly usefull, but I put it here anyway.
I'll be sure to keep you in my prayers! God bless!