Postby Bobtheduck » Thu Sep 25, 2003 9:32 pm
Man... "They loved the darkness because their deeds were evil" the first step is to admit to someone other than yourself what's going on...
I have to admit, I would like support with a problem I have too... i don't "like" it in fact it makes me sick, but I'm drawn to it whenever I get depressed (real people not hentai) and lonely...
I don't know very many guys that don't have a problem with that, and I know a lot of Girls affected (though it hits girls differently than guys in my experience) It's something that, once you get stuck in it, it's near impossible to get out. It really takes a lot of prayer and really getting into God's word, but also a lot of support... Without the support of other Christians (which I haven't had on this issue) it's next to impossible to get out of...
When I was in YWAM, I had people I felt comfortable talking to about my issues, but since I left a year and a quarter ago, I have had little to no support to help me conquer my temptations... It drives me into a depression and despair because I always go back to the verses in Revelation "the sexually immoral... will not enter" and I feel like I can't progress or do anything... It takes any joy I would have had out of doing nice things for people or giving tithe or offering because I think "This stuff doesn't mean anything, you're living immorally."
I really want out of it... It makes me paranoid around females a lot, because I am always afraid of something that I may think. I shrink whenever someone sits next to me, and am acutely aware of accidental contact because I feel like if I accidentally touch someone that I'm taking advantage, and then because I think "what if I think this" then it builds and my mind goes into these what-if scenarios with me thinking exactly what I'm afraid of ... I feel God has something big for me, but what always puts a block in my mind is when I do this stuff, then its' like "why bother learning to animate and make stories and games when your life is like this? You won't be any good to anyone."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=evcNPfZlrZs Watch this movie なう。 It's legal, free... And it's more than its premise. It's not saying Fast Food is good food. Just watch it.
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