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Hey everyone, I'm Ryan and I came because I want to continue to build up my relationship in Christ and I'd like to not have to cut out my love for anime which I would do if I thought it in any way is holding back my relationship with God.[/font]
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[font="Comic Sans MS"]"I basically compiled a lot below to help me understand a few things about myself and it's really only for me but for those of you who find things like 'reading to much information' fun, enjoy. This is really all you need to read." =
Hey everyone, I'm Ryan and I came because I want to continue to build up my relationship in Christ and I'd like to not have to cut out my love for anime which I would do if I thought it in any way is holding back my relationship with God.[/font]
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I'm really glad I found this website and am at a loss of words to type already... Well brief description followed by why I'm here: I'm an eighteen year old male (for another day), love God (really want that love to increase and working on it), have lived in California & Seoul, South Korea (9 months when I was 10). I'm part German, French, tad of Irish, good European mix (dirty blond/blue eyes) and raised in the typical American household with its own twists.
I adore anime and really have never explained my like with it to anyone... its always been a personal thing. My childhood was filled with me using my imagination (aren't most?) and growing up constantly playing games like cops and robbers with friends etc, although I remember having the most fun by myself with an action figure, beanie baby ( lol...), lego, creating something (plot, story, world that had never existed before). Anime just fit that I think in my mind, a different way of expression that has boundless means by which to do so.
Adult Swim (on cartoon network) has always been a favorite of mine whether it was Family Guy / Robot Chicken for humor or a show like Inuyasha late at night. Watching episode 1 to the end basically never happens, I get into it and let it feed my creative want/like (or imagination) then just catch it when I can. Quick Bio of my Anime: Watched first hundred episodes of Bleach with his friend on youtube / TV, round the same time BLASTED through every episode of Eureka Seven (sweet & short), Cowboy Bebop still intrigues me... (and I'd want to go back to watch more episodes... something about the environment of the show, gun slinger, space...), apart from those just a bunch of others I had come across.
I'm here because within the past year I've truly decided to give my life up to God, understand I was bought at a price, begin to understand the overwhelming compassion and love (GOD IS LOVE) he has over me and my life as well as be around some of the most influential people I've been able to meet (people who truly put God/Jesus first in their life). I stopped watched television, listening to all my old music etc etc. I don't draw, I don't sing, I don't write, I know I can and could practice and I think become good quickly, for some reason I don't. Possibly a psychological thing with my childhood where I'm trying to lean toward my Dad's approval (guess/his and I relationship is way better now but the past EH). BUT, Whenever I see someone draw, sing, speak their opinion and voice I'm overwhelmed with a sense of relaxation / emotion. Its one of the best feelings in the world that I can't begin to describe outside the word "relaxation".
Its hard not to ramble why I type this because well I've been up since 4AM (weird sleep schedule atm) & beginning to understand my own past while I type (broad area). Video games was a another crutch (I'm going to call it that because I know I took it past "healthy") I used to feed that creative/imaginative side of myself. I've been so productive the past three months with no TV, a lot less music (only Christian/occasional techno - which most cases is Andy Hunter or a friend who goes by Bazooie - very specific techno ties into my childhood even though I never really listened to it an insane amount, another story another day). Well, the past week I've backtracked. Two weeks ago talked with friends about illegal downloading (which I had stopped), they just asked questions about it etc. We talked for about an hour or more on the topic, longer story (another day), got frustrated I think that my own examples didn't understand it was stealing (companies profit, work, whatever it may be) and I think just told myself "well forget it" and grabbed some apps for my phone to be more productive, that was the first back slide I did. It was followed by playing a game on my phone, playing an MMO game, etc . . . Stuff I don't want to be doing with my life, I get unproductive, lazy, stay up all night, COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME (and more importantly don't dive into the Word).
Well so my search for creativity kicked in again tonight in the unhealthy search for a video game (i hate admitting that) and came across one. Now I'm not one to say NO ITS WRONG! but I don't like risking jeopardizing relationships that I really care about (Christ & I), and when watching one of the games trailers the basic spells were cast, the thought entered my head about spells/sorcery/witchcraft . . . for the first time in th week I immediately closed all nine tabs (I'm a multitasker/searcher). All week I struggled with diving into my word, killed time, pride, my own selfish interests. When it came to not only putting my real needs aside, but having a thought like that, theres no way I was going to play. Right before I really gave me life over to Christ this last year I went through TONs of video game accounts for the game World of Warcraft (even though I wasn't playing, you'll have to piece that together yourself...), literally around 2,000+ with a friend... so many of those accounts had 666 in their username, literally at least 10% ... it got to me as a non-christian.
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I came because I want to continue to build up my relationship in Christ and I'd like to not have to cut out my love for anime because I think it in any way is holding back my relationship with God.
Sincerely,
Ryan S Frank
