Probably my last post
PostPosted: Mon Aug 06, 2007 3:43 am
This may very well be the final post I make on CAA
…and believe me my fellow Christians, I hold nothing against you, Even though I am fully aware that I am just a couple of paragraphs away from winning your endless prayers for salvation and/or your very, very angry complaints. Please, read this entire post before you post back. You may not be able to comprehend this, but yes, I AM a Christian—a sinner, like every single one of you.
I am a gay Christian.
I firmly believe that being gay is not something that can be changed through human means or counseling, but I also believe more then anything that through Christ, all is possible. I don’t know if I was born this way; and frankly, I don’t care about the politics involved in this issue or not. That’s not what I’m going to tell you about.
I am happy this way. It has taken me many years (all right, three) to get to this place. You wanna know where I was? I was a 12-year-old kid, who was drugged at one of her own church friend’s parties (yeah; and I’m not talking about a loud music party, either, I’m talking about a group of Nerdy Christian kids who made weekly get-togethers to play Final Fantasy) and woke up in a really, really frightening predicament. Let’s just say, this all went down hill, and soon enough I was the Atheist of the family, with a severe spite for any one of any religion, and loads of issues with alcohol, drugs, sex abuse and eating disorders. I was only 13.
I’ve come leaps and bounds since then. I’m off the booze, the drugs are history, ‘bad’ friends are history but… oops, one little thing. I’m gay. I’m completely reformed. I’m a Christian, I read the bible, I’m working through my relationship with Jesus but I am still completely ostracized once any Christian finds out about my sexuality. No offense to anybody, but that’s not a way to help someone who is just on the way back to Christ. It was more or less a huge off set for me, and it kind of made me question what the heck I was doing as a Christian in the first place.
Make no mistake; I have thought though this a lot. When I came out of rehab, all of my problems seemed to fall away. I assumed the homosexuality would follow suit. It didn’t, because it wasn’t something I could get rid of without Jesus. It still hasn’t, I’m still praying, and I am growing in the Lord—Still, gay as can be. People have told me I’m not praying hard enough or I’m not doing it right but the fact is that I am saved. I am a Christian…a gay one but heck, if God wants it another way, then I’ll be straight. Until then, I’m just focused on being a happy new born in Christ.
In closing I’d like to make a few points.
Yes, as a homosexual, I am sinning. As a Christian, I believe that if the Bible is taken 100% literally that is true. However, if the Bible is to be taken 100% literally, then any of you who have picketed or donated to these Anti-Gay campaigns should grab your stick and be outside Red Lobster.
Deuteronomy 14:10 but anything that does not have fins and scales you shall not eat; it is unclean for you.
Many people say that people choose to be gay. Why is homosexuality the one thing that is picked as ‘The Chosen Sin’? You choose to work on Sunday, you choose to eat your crabs and lobsters, and you, undoubtedly a straight person, choose to sin, too. The bible is NOT taken literally anymore, and it doesn’t need to be. I realize this is going to get me in a lot of trouble, but it’s a point I want to be made clear with no hostility intended.
God gave us the bible. Verses-- entire books-- have changed, been added, been deleted. But it doesn't matter; the exact details don't matter. The central message is still there-- God loves you. He loves me. He loves us all. That’s obvious, right? So why do people constantly try to make it more complicated then that? Do you understand what I mean I sin, you sin- you are no better then me and you have no right to make it seem as if you are. In the eyes of God we are all his equally imperfect children.
As for me personally… well, I’m most likely banned now, but I want to say that Christ has brought more joy into my life then any other person, achievement or thing. If God wants me to be straight then yes, I will be straight. Until a day comes when I am ‘cured’ through Jesus, then I am perfectly happy the way I am. All I’m looking for, is that my own Christian family will accept me, despite my imperfections. Hey, if Jesus can then…well, could Christians, too?
<-- that's me
…and believe me my fellow Christians, I hold nothing against you, Even though I am fully aware that I am just a couple of paragraphs away from winning your endless prayers for salvation and/or your very, very angry complaints. Please, read this entire post before you post back. You may not be able to comprehend this, but yes, I AM a Christian—a sinner, like every single one of you.
I am a gay Christian.
I firmly believe that being gay is not something that can be changed through human means or counseling, but I also believe more then anything that through Christ, all is possible. I don’t know if I was born this way; and frankly, I don’t care about the politics involved in this issue or not. That’s not what I’m going to tell you about.
I am happy this way. It has taken me many years (all right, three) to get to this place. You wanna know where I was? I was a 12-year-old kid, who was drugged at one of her own church friend’s parties (yeah; and I’m not talking about a loud music party, either, I’m talking about a group of Nerdy Christian kids who made weekly get-togethers to play Final Fantasy) and woke up in a really, really frightening predicament. Let’s just say, this all went down hill, and soon enough I was the Atheist of the family, with a severe spite for any one of any religion, and loads of issues with alcohol, drugs, sex abuse and eating disorders. I was only 13.
I’ve come leaps and bounds since then. I’m off the booze, the drugs are history, ‘bad’ friends are history but… oops, one little thing. I’m gay. I’m completely reformed. I’m a Christian, I read the bible, I’m working through my relationship with Jesus but I am still completely ostracized once any Christian finds out about my sexuality. No offense to anybody, but that’s not a way to help someone who is just on the way back to Christ. It was more or less a huge off set for me, and it kind of made me question what the heck I was doing as a Christian in the first place.
Make no mistake; I have thought though this a lot. When I came out of rehab, all of my problems seemed to fall away. I assumed the homosexuality would follow suit. It didn’t, because it wasn’t something I could get rid of without Jesus. It still hasn’t, I’m still praying, and I am growing in the Lord—Still, gay as can be. People have told me I’m not praying hard enough or I’m not doing it right but the fact is that I am saved. I am a Christian…a gay one but heck, if God wants it another way, then I’ll be straight. Until then, I’m just focused on being a happy new born in Christ.
In closing I’d like to make a few points.
Yes, as a homosexual, I am sinning. As a Christian, I believe that if the Bible is taken 100% literally that is true. However, if the Bible is to be taken 100% literally, then any of you who have picketed or donated to these Anti-Gay campaigns should grab your stick and be outside Red Lobster.
Deuteronomy 14:10 but anything that does not have fins and scales you shall not eat; it is unclean for you.
Many people say that people choose to be gay. Why is homosexuality the one thing that is picked as ‘The Chosen Sin’? You choose to work on Sunday, you choose to eat your crabs and lobsters, and you, undoubtedly a straight person, choose to sin, too. The bible is NOT taken literally anymore, and it doesn’t need to be. I realize this is going to get me in a lot of trouble, but it’s a point I want to be made clear with no hostility intended.
God gave us the bible. Verses-- entire books-- have changed, been added, been deleted. But it doesn't matter; the exact details don't matter. The central message is still there-- God loves you. He loves me. He loves us all. That’s obvious, right? So why do people constantly try to make it more complicated then that? Do you understand what I mean I sin, you sin- you are no better then me and you have no right to make it seem as if you are. In the eyes of God we are all his equally imperfect children.
As for me personally… well, I’m most likely banned now, but I want to say that Christ has brought more joy into my life then any other person, achievement or thing. If God wants me to be straight then yes, I will be straight. Until a day comes when I am ‘cured’ through Jesus, then I am perfectly happy the way I am. All I’m looking for, is that my own Christian family will accept me, despite my imperfections. Hey, if Jesus can then…well, could Christians, too?
<-- that's me