Waterdeep (Lori Chaffer) - I'm afraid that I'm not supposed to be like this

[Bobtheduck]

Well I'm afraid that I'm not supposed to be like this.
Like I was born in a land where no serpent hissed
And I have waited a long time for your kiss.
Well I have felt the fatal take offense in me
And so a fence I have built to protect the seed
But all the bricks will secure its mortality
I have been seated in circles and stood in disgrace.
At the noted intention to be in place
And I have seen that one man saved the human race
But it took his life... And it took his faith. [button="Note"]I never really liked this song because of this line, but if it is taken as what she was thinking at the time she was going through this doubt, I can understand how you can pull that out of some of Jesus words during the Trial and crucifixion... I don*t think she actually believes that, though, that he lost his faith...People read anything, Bible included, through their own eyes and it is influenced by what you are going through at the time...[/button]
Well I have risen from ashes and fed on the flames
And even so I still fear I have played a game
And it seems no one else is as sick and depraved
Well I have heard that I'm not supposed to be this way.
And still the stones that are lifted fall down to stay
I keep doubting and think one will strike my face
Well he's been promising me something more than pain
Where the cost is grace and my loss is gain.
And I have chosen because there is no other way
I either wallow in shame
or humble myself and be saved..
And be saved... And be saved...

Every since my DTS (discipleship training school) in 2001, my favorite band has been Waterdeep. There's an old personality profile that uses the names of the "biles" in medeavel (sp?) medicine to describe types. Out of those personality types, I'd be called Primarily a "Meloncholic." Being introspective is a Meloncholic trait. That would describe Waterdeep's music. The "Sweet Meloncholy of life" (quote from Elizabeth town.) It is about problems and struggles, but with hope.

I have never understood people that listen to happy, upbeat, insipid music when they're upset. I talked to someone about it, and she told me it was like "warfare." Combatting what she was feeling with the opposite. That's cool, that's her personality. For me, listening to music like that when I'm upset is more alienating than helpfull... It makes me feel that much more alone. Instead, I listen to music that fits my mood. Well, that can often be stuff like Linkin Park, which I admit is just fitting my mood but not doing much to get me through it, but Waterdeep, on the other hand, has music that fits my down moods while giving hope in it... Some of their songs are happy, and some actually end on the same down note they started... That's because they're honest.

The songs that end in hope are what I really need when I'm depressed... I don't want to hear that I should just be happy... That's crap. I need to know it's ok for me to be upset, but know things will change.

On the same note, that's why my favorite LP song is "Breaking the Habit" because it ends in hope...

BTW, mods, I don't know the balance here between not gravedigging and not posting twice about the same subject... I know I posted about waterdeep, but that was 3 years ago... I just decided to post a new thread instead of resurrecting one that old...

[Lynx]

Hey that's pretty cool, i'll have to check them out sometime. I'm like you in that i dont want to listen to upbeat happy music when im upset about something. I'm a big linkin park, evanescence, and greenday fan.

anyways, i'll definatly check out waterdeep sometime!