Financial troubles and apathy.
PostPosted: Wed Jun 01, 2011 7:56 am
Hey guys, it's been a while.
With the summer rolling around, my income from school has ground to a halt. I get a check for attendign classes, as part of the VA benefits, but since I'm only taking six hours, I don't make nearly as much money. I have an emergency loan to pay off, my mother is switching jobs and taking a huge paycut (but atleast she'll be closer to home now) and my job doesn't pay me much, but I'm thankful to have it, nonetheless. In any case, making ends meet will be tough, and I don't like having to ask for money. I know my grandmother will help me out, but I'd prefer not to have to ask; I'm still trying to pay her back for last time.
Also, I've become somewhat apathetic. I'm sure part of it is because I don't attend church nearly as often as I used to - living an hour away can throw a wrench into that. I don't read the Bible much, or at all, really. When I pray, it's usually half-hearted, and I don't feel as if there is any conviction in it. What's worse is that at times, I've felt that I just don't care very much. Even so, those times when I make it to church are great - I feel uplifted and revived by going, especially when singing. I see some places that I can work on more just from typing this out.
I ask that you all keep me in prayer for the financial things, and particularly that I can renew my relationship with Christ. Also, some of my family and friends, as well - they tend to freak out a bit over the 'end times' stuff, despite knowing that nobody has a clue when it will happen. It's rather tiring, honestly. Thank you.
With the summer rolling around, my income from school has ground to a halt. I get a check for attendign classes, as part of the VA benefits, but since I'm only taking six hours, I don't make nearly as much money. I have an emergency loan to pay off, my mother is switching jobs and taking a huge paycut (but atleast she'll be closer to home now) and my job doesn't pay me much, but I'm thankful to have it, nonetheless. In any case, making ends meet will be tough, and I don't like having to ask for money. I know my grandmother will help me out, but I'd prefer not to have to ask; I'm still trying to pay her back for last time.
Also, I've become somewhat apathetic. I'm sure part of it is because I don't attend church nearly as often as I used to - living an hour away can throw a wrench into that. I don't read the Bible much, or at all, really. When I pray, it's usually half-hearted, and I don't feel as if there is any conviction in it. What's worse is that at times, I've felt that I just don't care very much. Even so, those times when I make it to church are great - I feel uplifted and revived by going, especially when singing. I see some places that I can work on more just from typing this out.
I ask that you all keep me in prayer for the financial things, and particularly that I can renew my relationship with Christ. Also, some of my family and friends, as well - they tend to freak out a bit over the 'end times' stuff, despite knowing that nobody has a clue when it will happen. It's rather tiring, honestly. Thank you.