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My life is not looking so great right now. I really feel trapped by my situation and I can't see a way out without severely damaging/ending my relationship, which already isn't in great shape anyway. But I'm so tired of just...existing. I'm not married and so it's not like I'm really bound to him, but every time I mention leaving he gets offended. I'm not so sure I want to get married anymore. I feel like I haven't really lived my life, and to be honest, I haven't. And I'm afraid to leave the things I'm familiar with.

Besides, I can't really get a job anyway because I have no way to get to one. And I can't get a car without some help. It's a really bad cycle that I can't see a way out of, other than using my boyfriend's resources for my own purposes, which I've done enough of already. My parents can't help me, so what does that leave? Not much.

I just really don't know what to do.

Hey, Hikari!
I first want to point out that your boyfriend should really respect your feelings concerning the relationship and just your opinions and way of doing things period. From what you've said it seems he is being really selfish. Yes, I know break ups can lead to hurt feelings but it seems like despite what you want he would rather force you to stay in the relationship. What's wrong with taking some time to think things through? Marriage is no trifle thing.

Just want to let you know I can somewhat see where you are coming from dealing with my own problems and that I'm praying everything works out for you.

You know I am praying for ya.

God is faithful, and will bring you through even this. I'm praying.

Hey Hikari

you have a sister in this trust me. I've been going through the same stuff *different cirumstance but same depressing cycle* you know...this type of cycle has happened a lot..and i've found a couple things through this experience:

1. God is faithful
doesn't matter what your goin through, he's gonna get you out in his own special just in teh nick of time way. Remember he may put pressure on you but he won't crush you..even though it feels like it

2. Pray about everything..and ask him to give you strength

i mean with your boyfriend..it's hard cuz i mean i'm sure you have some emotion..maybe you could take a break or if you feel the relationship isn't going well..break it off and if he get's offended tell him you need to do it for yourself not anyone else

for the job, first think of what you really want to do and see if their are any jobs in that area...if not...put up an ad for babysitting or go find a store to manage....you'll find one..just have hope God's not gonna leave you stranded...

Also know that if your feeling depressed or confused..*again got a sister over here lol* i've found and i know for a fact..that God is still there through it all...Ask him to take it away and knkow he's with you...You got the strongest, smartest *so smart Albert Einstein would look like a baby* and the kindest dude at your back...what better support do you need right? *smile i'll be praying for ya sis and sorry if this was so long ><

May you know God's blessings and feel his comfort
your sis in christ
girlninja

I have been in a similar situation as well, sweets. I know this is really hard, and it's a huge depressing issue. It makes me sad to see other people go through this. *hugs* I am most definitely praying for you. If this isn't right for you, God will find ways to help get you away and make it through. God will provide. He loves us and wants us happy.

I'm praying for you, Shishi...you'll get through this. God bless.

Annette, I will definitely pray for you. Let me know if there's anyway I can help. ^__^

sorry to hear that, ill pray for you

Ill pray for you. Just "trust in God with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding, In all your ways remain in Him and he will make your path straight."- from a Christian song and but I thing its also a verse from the Word verse I just cant remember the name(ill look up for it). Take that leap of faith and step out of the relationship and let God lead you the rest of the way.

If your boyfriend is offended by your suggestion of leaving, at least, it's good to know that he wants you (just trying to look at it from a positive point of view). Additionally, it sounds like it isn't really an issue between you and him but rather between you and your personal search for meaning of life.

But.......then again, I cannot claim to understand your whole situation so I'll just stop there and pray instead for God to show you the answers you're looking for.