CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

I think I need some prayer. I've always been the one to pray for others and ask for others to pray for others that I know but I've never asked for anyone to pray for me. There's been a lot of changes going on in my life since I moved to North Carolina about 3 years ago. I made friends that I thank the Lord for since they are all Christian I also than him for the ones that aren't Christian they are all awesome. but I've always been, deep down inside, a little depressed. I mean I thought at first that it was just an adjustment problem with my new surroundings and that I would soon get over it. I did I love it here now.

Then about a year ago I think it was my pastor and his wife decided to adpot five more children they already had three living in the house from ages 16, 14, and 11. The kids were all for it at first then one of my friends became depressed and e-mailed me a lot. I've always kept an emotional barrier up cuz I am very very emotional and I hate to be sucked into other's issues.

Unfortunately somehow I began to feed off of my friend's depression and things from my past (when I was very young) came back to my head and I just felt like Satan had grabbed me and was never letting go. I felt forsaken from the Lord I felt like life was just not worth living. Thankfully my pastor's wife found out and I began to get help. But my friend doesn't have help and she makes fun of me because I'm getting the help I need and I get angry I don't ever say anything at first but then I just need to tell her how it is.

I dread going to chruch sometimes. I only look forward to seeing my friend's sister, Joy and my youth pastor. I just hate beeing there with all of them and their adpoted sisters. I know its got to be hard and I've been praying for them so hard.

I just feel like I can't go on like this all of us are getting too mature for the petty fights they have and I just can't take it. sometimes things get out of hand and I get angry. I know the Lord has just got to be testing me or something and I feel like nothing I do is making a difference. Please I'd really be thankful if ya'll would pray for me. You all are so wonderful. I thank the Lord that I've found a group like this.

Ask and ye shall receive, friend. Your request is granted.

Matthew 11

28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."


will be praying

Indeed i shall pray for you!
I remember the depression i was faced with earlier in life due to my apparence. I had something called Alopecia. It's were your immune system attacks the hair follicules and you lose some of your hair. Though after a while it all grew back it was a continuous until my senior year in high school. But all of middle school i was faced with this problem and as a latent result i tend to be shy around people i first meet and i sometimes felt naked w/o my hat. But not anymore. But back then I was also depressed. Then my friend told me that it doesn't help to be depressed all the time. People don't want be around depressed people because they give off a negative feel to everything around them and makes the atmosphere negative. He was right. It's okay to be sad about something but to have it control your life is not fair for you or your friends. The best thing to do is to always "try" to have a positive outlook on life. Try to help your friend as much as possible but don't do it where you get sucked into the depression. Life is short and you need to live it. And don't let him get you depressed by making fun of getting help. Everyone needs help sometime in their life and there is nothing to be ashamed about. And i'll also pray for your friend, i hope he can find someone who is willing to help him and is willing to recieve the help. Don't give up on your friend, but also don't let yourself become a victim.

I'll pray for you.

I'll pray

hmm, i know that feeling man. i'll pray!