i'm into pornography please help

[Galant]

One thing to remember is that everything is a choice and a trade off.

Perhaps some of the biggest motivations for me are that I notice the change in the way I look at friends - girls, especially any I might want to care for. Those thoughts change the way I view them, would (not might) affect the way I would treat them. I see myself as being here with them to bless them. To encourage them - it is my greatest hope that my life would be used by God to bless others, to encourage them and that I might be a part of God's cleansing, transforming and blessing them - part of God's active creation of their lives! My greatest fear is that I would do the opposite. Instead of being used by God for their betterment and in His plan for them, that I would end up working against God, dragging them down in the areas where they are weak. Polluting their lives instead of encouraging them. I hate that I pollute myself, the difficulty of the stuggles at times, I would never ever wish that upon anyone, certainly not my friends and the ones that I love - yet to keep filling my mind with those things at the least isolates me so that I cannot be used properly to bless them, and worse, it would lead me to become that liability something that is a drain and pollutant in their lives.

Furthermore, and perhaps the most extreme version of this - marriage. I have recently grown quite close to a girl and came to love much about her. But in the process I started to realise that there was much in me that ended up hurting her. Much that put her in difficult situations or did as I said above and lead her to do things which worked against God's will. I wasn't able to lead her as she was hoping and desired or as God desires - I only lead her to dark places. I lead her down not up. And even though we weren't in a full relationship, it was enough to show me that I needed to be very different, had much to learn, if I ever wanted to be a man who could ever really love a woman and lead and honour her as God requires me to. The choice made to dip into porn or lust or wrong thoughts is a like a sweet-tasting poison. It tastes good, and you can't get enough, but every drop you drink pollutes you and means that in the future you will not be able to be the person that you desire to be.

You must choose whether you want the pleasure of the present or the fulfilment of the future - both are wholly available to you, and God is wholly desirous and able to give you the latter. Oh, and the happy little secret is - the present pain of withdrawal doesn't actually last long, and the payoff even tastes sweet in the present. So many new things take on new life, everything seems fresh and real. It's like having been playing games on an aged computer and then switich to a new one. You slowly got used to the quality so didn't think you were missing anything, bu then when you finally make the switch, the reality hits, and everything is so much clearer, faster and better.

God bless,
G.

[Kat Walker]

A porn ad just popped up onto my screen as I opened this page....*kicks spybots*

I see we need prayers for more things than one.

[Ichigo_89]

I guess you could say that I was once a slave to this dishonorable sin as well because of some anime I just "had to keep" because of the good artwork. (Blue Sub.6 Evangelion Vol.1 Platinum, Ghost in the Shell SAC Vo.1) Then one night I was listening to this CD that my mom said I should listen to, and it was about how a couples first born is Satan's main target (being me). I instantly realized that Satan had found the way to get to me. ANIME! I was shocked at first, but I knew what I had to do, no matter how much I didn't want to. Some of my Mangas had brief pornographicish pics in them as well, and I was like, DARN YOU!!! Satan was winning, but I become strong, and unturnable, So I got rid of that stuff and traded em in for Last Exile and Kenshin Anime. (A much better choice!) Anyways, just ranting.

[dragonshimmer]

I can understand this trap people fall in. It's really hard NOT to get into that, especially if you're trying to practice abstinence in real life. I'll keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. With the love and support of everyone here and everyone's prayers, I am positive that everyone can get through this somehow! *nods*

[JediSonic]

I'll pray for everyone!

A porn ad just popped up onto my screen as I opened this page....*kicks spybots*

Kick the spyware... I actually quite recommend SpyBot
http://www.safer-networking.org/en/spybotsd/index.html
Seriously... you should try downloading SpyBot S&D as I truely beleive it'll get rid of any porn popups you see on CAA.

[CDLviking]

You could also switch to Firefox as a browser. I haven't gotten a single pop-up since making the switch.

[Jaltus-bot]

You could also switch to Firefox as a browser. I haven't gotten a single pop-up since making the switch.

How do you get it?

[CDLviking]

Old Phil had some thread about it with a link. That's how I got it. It's probably in the computing forum or something.

[Mr. SmartyPants]

also here

http://www.mozilla.org/products/firefox/

ill still keep praying

[Bokushi_Ash]

What a wonderful community that will offer council instead of criticism. God really works through people like you. Pornography has become too acceptable in society.

I don't know if it would help or not, but all of you who are trying to get out of it can make a website or blog and record your progresses, maybe even together. If you want any help with that, PM me.

I will definitely pray for all of you.

[jesusfreakabc]

what i'm doing now is going only on 2 sites here and http://www.millsberry.com
it helps a lot. it keeps you from looking at those pics and another thing is that i am writing a story which keeps my mind off that stuff (if you want to see my story click the link in my sig)